71: I am now a final year student

Sunday, 17 September 2017


Assalamualaikum. Hello. 안녕.

The last post I wrote and posted on this blog was on 25 August 2016. Today is 17 September 2017. I'm sorry I've been gone for more than a year. I've been gone for so long that I'm already in my fourth and final year as a forensic science student in UKM. I want to say that a year has given me time to mature and find myself, but that would just be a lie. Truth be told I just spent the last year cherishing every moment I have with my friends because I won't be seeing them often next year. In fact, I don't even get to see them much often this year because we're all busy conducting our research/final year project. 

Aims for the future
I wrote this post as a 'luahan hati' assignment for Dr. Linda and I wanted to publish it here.
To describe my feeling right now is.. complicated. If you asked me 4 years ago "what are you going to do after this?" as I hold my SPM results in my hands..... I'd probably say I'm going to live the rest of my life as a housewife. I didn't know a simple decision of enrolling into matriculation could land me a spot in UKM Forensics. I didn't know that I'd be working on a project in forensic entomology, one of my desired fields after binge-watching 12 seasons of Bones & idolizing Dr. Jack Hodgins. I also didn't know that I'd meet lecturers who I respect and friends who I care for very much. I am very happy I chose this path.

Looking back to the 3 years I've spent here in UKM Forensics, I've made some good choices and some bad judgments. The first 2 years were a blur to me because although I had a passion for forensic science, I didn't know what I really want to do. Figuring out just that already took away my focus in some classes and gave 20-year-old me an identity crisis. But now I feel like I've matured a lot and I know what I want to pursue in life. My priority as of this moment is myself and my family. I want to repay my folks for all their hard work raising me. I also want to experience studying in the UK and figure out how to survive in a foreign land. Marriage is not on my mind yet though.

I have many goals for the future but for now, I just want to focus on my studies and hopefully get to wear a pink robe and walk across the DECTAR stage with a degree in hand next year. :)
I'm pretty determined to get out of Malaysia as soon as the chance comes. Hehe. It's not that I don't love my country. I was raised here most of my life. But I want to explore the world and gain new experiences. I want to bring new knowledge and contribute to my country. InsyaAllah.

Plans for this blog
For now, I don't know if I can keep up with a regular posting schedule because one minute I'm free, the next minute I'm assignment-bound. I'll try to update more on life or post reviews if I can.

That's all for today. Goodbye!